She's got you high and you don't even know yet She's got you high and you don't even know yet The sun's in the sky, its warming up your bare legs You can't deny your looking for the sunset
She's got you high and you don't even know yet She's got you high and you don't even know yet It's the search for the time before it leaves without you Have you lost your mind or has she taken all of yours too? Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
She's got you high and you don't even know yet She's got you high and you don't even know yet The sun's in the sky, it makes for happy endings You can't deny you want a happy ending
Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
She's got you high She's got you high She's got you high
Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
She's got you high
Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
Down in Jamaica They got lots of pretty women Steal your money Then they break your heart Lonesome Sue, she's in love with ol' Sam Take him from the fire into the frying pan
On and on She just keeps on trying And she smiles when she feels like crying On and on, on and on, on and on
Poor ol' Jimmy Sits alone in the moonlight Saw his woman kiss another man So he takes a ladder Steals the stars from the sky Puts on Sinatra and starts to cry
On and on He just keeps on trying And he smiles when he feels like crying On and on, on and on, on and on
When the first time is the last time It can make you feel so bad But if you know it, show it Hold on tight Don't let her say goodnight
Got the sun on my shoulders And my toes in the sand My woman's left me for the some other man Aw, but I don't care I'll just dream and stay tan Toss up my heart to see where it lands
On and on I just keep on trying And I smile when I feel like dying On and on, on and on, on and on
On and on, on and on, on and on On and on, on and on, on and on
It has been an eventful weekend, essentially a girly weekend but peppered with lotsa amusing anecdotes and spontaneity! One thing I realised since linking my FB to my blog, More people read from my Notes on FB and more respond via FB as well. For instance, I did not expect the responses for my last post, with support and affirmation from friends. Was and still am at a loss for words and I can only come up with a humble "thank you". :)
My Fri started on a positive note, with back to back NM2201 tutorials from 4-6pm. Am glad I managed to carry out the activity with my classes and kept within the time limit, as well as provided them with instructions on their project. E was right, my classes do seem responsive and animated and did not need too much warming up. Love them! I overran but the tutor/lecturer after me was so nice about it, I think that being around the nasty ones make me appreciate the nice ones more! :)
The rest of my weekend was as follows:
Fri evening :: C's birthday! :: Battling peak hour traffic :: Sea salt caramel cake at Cedele, Raffles City :: Raffles Hotel mooncakes, wasn't impressed by their new offerings :: Arrived at French crepe place, which name and exact location shall remain undisclosed :: One hour wait :: A arrives! :: Talk with A :: Relationship revelations, one of my most mild mannered friends had a profound dislike for most recent ex's disposition. :: C n S arrives, finally! :: Food food food! :: Four seasons crepe ala us! :: French apple cider, French apple cider with blackcurrant liquor :: Gal talk over dinner :: Debate over Blackberry and iPhone, no question about winner, ha :: Snaps in time :: Desserts, love salted caramel butter! :: Pressies, very lovely pressies :: Cake and fun! :: Walk over to collect A's car from the scary carpark :: Drove over to get C's bday tipple :: Moet for the gals :: Beyond the sea, Rainbow connection, Goodbye :: Laughs over bubbly, love all around :: Time passes faster with great company and Moet :: Can't believe it's past 2! :: Reached home at 3, reverted to emails, turned in at 6 ::
Sat evening :: Dinner before heading to Pump Room :: Brief conversation with B who's home on a Sat, nice catching up with him! :: Found Pump Room, nearly walked into cute-ish guy while trying to get A, turns out cute-ish guy was one of the "bouncers" :: Joined A and the hen night entourage! :: Familiar faces, new faces :: Catching up and tidbits :: Interesting pressies for the bride... and groom :: The reason why there wasn't a male stripper for A :: Hilarious company :: Red devil's horns with a black veil ::
Live music -ZuQ & Jive talkin' :: Dancing Queen A :: "One of the easiest dedications for a bride to be!" :: First to get dragged by A, successfully, to the dance floor :: Fantastic music :: Mr Attention grabber with shades on the podium for Don't stop till you get enough, unimpressed though he did get a lot of attention from the floor. :: Great finish of first set :: Nice music mix during the break, more dancing :: Hydrate, chat, S came! ::
Set 2 from Jive talkin' :: More dancing! :: Guy who kept bumping into all of us, left, right and behind him. :: Kinda cute guy in black w glasses who kept moving nearer to us, A claimed he kept looking at us, ha. :: More singing back/together with Jive talkin :: Lotsa familiar songs! :: I'm yours, Beautiful girl/Stand by me ::
Break after second set :: Sudden grab of my hand by Mr Podium in shades, matched him move for move, made my break when he tried to get too close, he dropped his shades, not that cool after all. :: Persistent second try by Mr Podium who thinks he's God's gift to women :: Broke away and literally palmed a trio of his female groupies to him. :: Approving nods from peeps around my friends and me who were all watching Mr Podium n me, seriously?! :: Just dance ::
Picked up by a trio of guys :: Cheesy pick up lines, friends think they were lying about their age, way too young to be 29, ha. :: I know a Canadian accent when I hear one :: Got extricated by friends from the dance floor :: A n T said that there was a fellow female dancer who was stalking me?? who looked a lil like Maria Sharapova??, seriously?! :: Felt a guy from the trio was kinda ok, but T said I could do better, ha. ::
Back at the table with A and the rest! :: A n I had to hold hands to the ladies, got waylaid before n after by trio. :: Strictly girls affair ::
Set 3 begins :: It's raining men, I gotta feeling, Viva La Vida, It's my life, Living on a prayer :: Could not resist the allure of the dance floor :: One last dance with the gals :: Ended up beside the trio, seriously?! :: Kept avoiding Mr Alright from trio :: I wana dance with somebody, We will rock you, Forever young :: Beat it, ironic Mr Canadian tried to dance with me for this song, told him to beat it, politely of course. ha. :: Jive talkin really drew the mood out from the crowd ::
Hungry gals :: Spize :: Navigation at 3am :: Kay Poh Road, kid you not! :: Teh Halia :: More bride stories :: Raving about Jive Talkin with A on our way back :: Till the 19th babes! ::
Sun :: Reached home at 5am, had breakfast made by Dad, eggs and toast on a rainy morning :: Woke up to MacDonald's lunch by Dad too! :: Emails, checking forums, planning for tutorials next week :: Hanging up my dancing shoes :: Back to work mode, glad for the girly weekend! ::
It has been an eventful weekend, think I will go back to Pump Room at some point in time, for the music! It's different from club culture because of the live music, and there's no cover charge. Am impressed by the live band Jive Talkin', they have great rapport with the audience and they are also quite good! Nice mix of classics and current pop music. Overall generally nice atmosphere as well, persistent guys aside.
Frankly, there is a tiny element of an ego boost but am really just there for the music and to have a good time with my gals. Like what J says, I should give the guys kudos for trying in the first place. :) Turning down guys is also an art too, ask ten gals and you may have ten different ways of doing it. :) Too bad I din get to see the guy in black w glasses again during the third set, though he and his wing man did pass by our table a couple of times according to A during the break. Oh well, maybe too many gals, haha.
I've not danced in ages, seldom club, maybe once or twice max a year. Had great fun with the gals nonetheless, I think that it's really the company that counts when it comes to having a good time. Happy hen night to A! :)
YY has been recommending me this series, Lie to me; it so happened that this week, B and a couple of other friends also recommended it, finally got around to checking it, and I love it!! The main protagonist played by Tim Roth, reminds me of Gregory House in the medical series House. In Lie to me, Tim Roth plays a specialist in reading body language. The series revolves around situations in which he uses his skills to tell if people are lying to solve cases. Interesting stuff. I watched a documentary on micro expressions earlier this year and I think that this series touches a lot on that too. It's interesting to see footage from the Whitegate incident, the O.J Simpson case, etc. used as examples of certain emotions. Good stuff!
I managed to find footage of Jive Talkin' on Youtube, and included one of my fav songs of last night: Viva La Vida. This song really got the crowd going wild, me included. ;)
Viva La Vida - Coldplay
I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing "Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing Roman Cavalry choirs are singing Be my mirror, my sword and shield My missionaries in a foreign field For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never Never an honest word And that was when I ruled the world It was the wicked and wild wind Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums People couldn't believe what I'd become Revolutionaries wait For my head on a silver plate Just a puppet on a lonely string Oh who would ever want to be king?
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing Roman Cavalry choirs are singing Be my mirror, my sword and shield My missionaries in a foreign field For some reason I can't explain I know Saint Peter won't call my name Never an honest word But that was when I ruled the world
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing Roman Cavalry choirs are singing Be my mirror, my sword and shield My missionaries in a foreign field For some reason I can't explain I know Saint Peter won't call my name Never an honest word But that was when I ruled the world
If memory serves me right, a year ago today, I decided to leave him once and for all. No more chances, no more turning back. Ironic that one of my best friend's birthday falls on the same day, which is probably why I remember the day.
Not going to dwell on it today, or get emo about it. Remembered how I managed to get over it with the help and support of dear friends and family then. Have not talked about what happened with most and I don't intend to. Realised that I'm stronger than I give myself credit for, that I had to leave toxic relationships and that in the end, no matter how much people around you help you, you have to want to help yourself. Let this be a reminder to myself.
That relationship left an indelible imprint upon me. Have forgotten a lot of stuff since then. But sometimes, some memories come back. I no longer fight them but allow the moment to come and go.
Some parts of this song sums up what I feel. Enuff said, don't want my cousin to tell me, with all the love in her heart, to "go emo one corner", ha.
Can't believe how quickly August zipped past. Was busy adjusting to the new semester, am doing not one but two new modules, which in turn brings about two new sets of readings, lectures, etc., but am totally loving and relishing the experience so far! Hopefully my enthusiasm will rub off on the students. ha. Am working with great colleagues as well, for which I am grateful for. On and forward! :)
Was down with H1N1 last week, on the week when my tutorials began, was really bummed out as I was looking forward to the classes and meeting the students. Realised that quite a few of them are ex students from NM2219. Did not tell most people as I did not want them to freak out or get too worried, which I know they will, from the press reports thus far. Informed the school, colleagues and students in my class. Had to see the doc twice as the meds from the first time weren't working well. But I was kinda glad to have a very matter of fact and kinda blase doc who informed me that "9 out of 10 patients are down with H1N1 these days", which made me wonder about the dip in H1N1 cases that is reported in the papers these days. I think that most of us are opting out of the swabs because it is a tad costly and we would rather take our meds and recover.
H1N1 is like your worst flu experience, multiplied by at least 10 because of the temperature spikes, and I kept procastinating going to the doc's coz I hate going to the doc's and I was too weak to even get out of bed, much less go the doc's. Felt really faint from the fever and flu, could not feel my extremities at some point as well. Another friend came down with too,felt bad as I might have passed it to her when I just came down with it. :( But my colleagues came through, helped me take over my classes and my HoD was nothing but supportive and encouraging, which I appreciated. Hopefully the worst is over and I'm just left with a cough and an occassional sneeze.
Met up with L for her church's anniversary on Sunday, heard a good message and was introduced to her friends. A really nice bunch or guys and gals, too bad I could not join them for lunch, nvm will meet her again at A's wedding later this month! Met C n S for brunch at our little enclave to discuss C's bday plans and to do our girly chat, felt good to be out after being sick and stuck at home most of the week! :)
Had my first tutorials for NM3224. Was looking forward to it though the day got off to a bad start when I had an encounter with this German language tutor/lecturer whose class was before mine and when I opened the door to remind her, flipped at me before I could get a word out. Think my students waiting outside the classroom were shocked. Honestly I was as well but I know I had to remain calm and composed. When the class ended and I went in to set up, she had the gall to ask me in a superior tone "Is this way you treat your colleagues?" That was when it was time for me to step up and tell her off. "Is this the way you treat your colleagues?" I replied, giving her the don't mess with me look. She backed off, made some reason about not erasing the whiteboard and I plainly ignored her as I was setting up and the rest of my students streamed in. It happened that one of the department's student was in her tutorial and we struck up a conversation as I prepared my slides. When she came in again to erase the board which she thought I might be using, I ignored her and was prepared to tell her off firmly if she disrupted my class with anymore of her antics. Was glad it did not have to come to that because I did not want to have to put her down in front of my class. Sigh. I hope this doesn't happen again next week.
Most colleagues and friends are shocked at what happened, one commented that I seem to meet such rude colleagues more frequently than others. Some remembered the incident from last sem as well. I see it as a bummer, definitely, but also a need to learn to assert myself. I am not a pushover and do not take kindly when people take my general niceness for granted. Maybe it's a way to train myself to handle such people in such situations. No point shouting or lowering myself to their level but to try to raise above it and show them in no uncertain terms that I am not a pushover. Grrrr. haha. But despite that, I enjoyed my two hours of back to back tutorials immensely, students were shy but promising! :) I overran but the Chinese language tutor/lecturer was so nice about it, I went up to her to thank her for being understanding before I left. See what happens when people are nice to each other?? haha.
September looks packed and I do hope to get some stuff done. Just arranged for a farewell meal with E before he leaves, will miss him! Nice guy and colleague. Had to re-schedule from last week, as well as meeting with B after work for drinks as I was down with H1N1.
And today's C's birthday!! Can't believe another year's passed, she wants to par-tay this weekend, we shall see how that goes. ;) Happy birthday babe, love ya lots!
In a tone befitting for the par-tay this weekend, my fav song from B.E.P so far. Love the song, less so the mtv because I believe in happening fun, not debaunchery. Getting wasted - not fun at all. ;)
I Gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas I gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night That tonight’s gonna be a good night That tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x3) Tonight’s the night night Let’s spend it up Go out and smash it Like Oh My God Jump off that sofa Let’s get get OFF I know that we’ll have a ball If we get down And go out And just loose it all I feel stressed out I wanna let it go Lets go way out spaced out And loosing all control Fill up my cup Mozoltov Look at her dancing Just take it off Lets paint the town We’ll shut it down Let’s burn the roof And then we’ll do it again
Lets Do it (x3) And live it up I gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night That tonight’s gonna be a good night That tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x2) Tonight’s the night Let’s live it up I got my money Lets spend it up
Go out and smash it Like Oh My God Jump off that sofa Lets get get OFF Fill up my cup (Drink) Mozolotov (Lahyme) Look at her dancing (Move it Move it) Just take it off Lets paint the town We’ll shut it down Lets burn the roof And then we’ll do it again Lets do it (x3) Let’s live it up Here we come Here we go We gotta rock Easy come Easy go Now we on top Feel the shot Body rock Rock it don’t stop Round and round Up and down Around the clock Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Saturday and Sunday Get get get get get With us you know what we say Party everyday p-p-p-party Party everyday I gotta feeling that tonight gonna be a good night That tonight's gonna be a good night That tonight's gonna be a good good night(x2)
It's been a flurry of activities for the last two weekends, did not have a chance to make a note about last weekend, the long National Day weekend, and this weekend is upon us! I shall endeavour to make a quick note of both weekends, which do not do justice to the weekends, but that's the best I can do for now, and there are pictures on FB as well! :) Already C has dropped a line to ask about this picture of me and a delish steak sandwich. haha.
Long National Day weekend
FRI :: Brought grandmother out to Ion Orchard, tried Canton-i and Gusttimo. :: Heard about the terrible service at Gusttimo, but had a very pleasant experience with prompt and attentive wait staff. :: More than three hours of driving. :: Free fruits and refreshing coconut juice. ::
SAT :: Dropped by Tampines to pay long overdue visit to C&F and baby Lauralynn. :: Missed Fish n Co. :: Bought strawberry and cream puffs, reserved 7 more. :: Saw F's new wheels since we last met. :: Afternoon with CnF and baby Lauralynn. :: At a loss for baby talk. :: Catching up with CnF. :: Mummy's looks, Daddy's girl. :: One hour of baby interaction is draining enough, how does C do it everyday? :: Tour of house - my first pink kitchen! :: Dinner time - Missed out on meal at Changi :: Travelling from East to West, good thing I reserved the puffs, sold out when I got there. :: Lone figure under the street lamp. :: Drive over to Da Paolo. :: Picking out our dinner, National Day cupcakes. :: Dinner with the gals, Yummilicious food, lovely drinks! :: Nachos!! :: Cranium with J and the gals after dinner. :: Pulled off an imitation I thought I could never pull off, sign of C's faith in me, ha. :: Midnight sweets! :: Sleepover after a long day, but not before Facebooking at C's sleepover and doing our nails. :: Thanks C!!
SUN :: Sun's out and so are we! :: Service at Shoots.' :: Introduced Shoots to dim sum brunch at VK. :: Hits and misses. :: Leaving the lovelies to their shopping. :: VnJ's. :: Flowers, airconditioning and domestication. :: Liberation! :: Driving Miss and Mr Foodies. :: Food trail at Joo Chiat. :: The Beer Room: Beer is wonderful! :: Of Hobgoblins, Circusmaster and Wytchcraft:: Second round of dim sum for the day - fluffy char siew buns! :: Otahs. :: Delightful moist Hokkien Mee and my first encounter with Tau Kwa Pao. :: Sunset drive. :: Delightful magaritas on a hot National Day. :: Of good dwarfs and Saboteurs. :: Otah, drinks and conversation. :: Plans. :: Quick Citadels session. :: Cooking a cook out! :: Sacrifices for good food. :: afc. :: Chatting till we sleep. :: How sleepovers are rarely about sleep. :: The light pitter patter of rain.
MON :: Sleeping in on a rainy morning. :: Sleepy faces, happy people. :: Homemade breakfast - eggs and toast. :: More afc. :: Heavy lids. :: Postponing lunch appts. :: Singing in the rain. :: Love my friends. :: Room cleaning at home. :: Tired but fulfilled. :: End of a long weekend, a new semester begins.
And after a week of the onset of the flu, another weekend beckons. Was really happy to see familiar faces in school this week, even if it's just one lecture on Tues!
FRI :: Last min cancellations. :: Dinner with familar faces. :: New makan hangout. :: Dessert hunt, ended up at The Pump Room. :: Good live act, less than adequate sound system. :: Tower challenge. :: Reminiscing of drinking holes and hang outs. :: Talking everything under the sun under the moonlight.
SAT :: Wardrobe decisions, emergency calls. :: Dinner at Liang Court. :: Bellini Grande. :: Cooler babes than dudes. :: Gold 90.5. :: Soul Kool. :: Broiler brought to Bellini. :: Black label. :: Birthday boy turns 30! :: Wierd turn of events. :: Mambo Night at Bellini. :: Music picks up at midnight. :: Lady Gaga's selection done live! :: Just dance!:: Picking up someone requires a lot of timing, trying your luck when someone else is out cold is not one of them. :: Emergency calls. :: Eventful evening. :: Home at 5, in bed at 8.
Was planning a quiet non-eventful weekend, but surprises kept coming up. No matter, I am gonna hang my dancing shoes and settle down to my work and studies with the advent of the new semester!
Missed the Lady Gaga concert this week, A and J enjoyed it lots, picked a song tonight which reminded me of the good music mix last night! :)
Just dance - Lady Gaga
I've had a little bit too much, much All of the people start to rush, start to rush by How does he twist the dance? Can't find a drink, oh man Where are my keys? I lost my phone, phone
What's going on on the floor? I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore Keep it cool, what's the name of this club? I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance
Wish I could shut my playboy mouth, oh oh oh-oh How'd I turn my shirt inside out? Inside outright Control your poison babe, roses have thorns they say And we're all getting hosed tonight, oh oh oh-oh
What's going on on the floor? I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore Keep it cool, what's the name of this club? I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance Dance, dance, just, j-j-just
When I come through on the dance floor checkin' out that catalog Can't believe my eyes, so many women without a flaw And I ain't gon' give it up, steady tryin' to pick it up like a car I'ma hit it, I'ma hit it and flex and do it until tomorr' yeah
Shawty I can see that you got so much energy The way you're twirlin' up them hips 'round and 'round And now there's no reason at all why you can't leave here with me In the meantime stay and let me watch you break it down
And dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance
Woo! Let's go!
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic Got my blueprint, it's symphonic Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic Got my blueprint electronic
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic Got my blueprint, it's symphonic Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic Got my blueprint electronic
Go! Use your muscle, carve it out, work it, hustle I got it, just stay close enough to get it Don't slow! Drive it, clean it, lights out, bleed it Spend the lasto (I got it) In your pocko (I got it) Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance
Probably my last post before the semester begins, a very busy long weekend ahead, going over to F's place for housewarming, meeting baby L for the very first time! Yea! Then going over to C for a sleepover girly gal thing, love her place - five levels and a pool, who needs Bali or Bintan when you have it at your doorstep? Am envious! Meeting A for dinner before that as well. Sun is a day with the fab five, food trail around Singapore and maybe games and wines? Playing by ear but am sure that I will get good and meaningful encounters this weekend! Can't go wrong with friends like this!
Am grateful for the support from friends after the previous post. Some pretty unexpected and interesting feedback as well... you know who you are! ;) Also, I need to clear up this Ion incident, I've been getting messages from friends, different friends who have 'seen' me at Ion with this tall guy at different stores (LV, Sephora, Taste Paradise???). First up, it wasn't me. ha. And second, please don't feel bad about coming up to say hi! :)
About my previous post, I don't see myself as savvy in that kind of politics, and contrary to what some believe, I think that being nice doesn't put you at an advantage, in fact it may play against you when you get thrown a curveball. :( But I think that being wary and on guard all the time is tiring as well. I guess you can't please everyone and the people who are really worth proving yourself to at the end of the day, do not need proving. Just that I don't see the point in being antagonistic or being whiny all the time and I believe picking my battles.
Think I'm picking up precious lessons along the way in the past year, who to trust, who not to trust, getting rid of the hypocritical ones (yes, giving others the impression that they are wronged and wana talk while sending nuisance nasty smses and making nuisance calls), getting others to clear up their mess because they think they have some money, yes, I've learnt to purge such people from my life and I'm taking no nonsense from them.
Some friends feel that I'm making a very clear and clean cut from such people: no calls, no smses, no contact. Kinda heartless? Maybe. But after last year, I do not see the point in keeping in touch with some of them. Not that it was easy to cut them out of my life like that. But it was something that had to be done. So that I can move on and away from the toxic relationships. You may call it a spring cleaning of sorts. ha. Even moving on is taking time, am consciously keeping away from relationships and potential ones now because I'm still recovering from the toll of the ones in the last year. Some days it seems like there's some light coming in and other days are just plain bad. But for me, I've learnt in the past year to compartmentalise, to work, juggle family stuff, go out with friends and hang out, socialise, work on my thesis even if things are less than good at the other end. I honestly duno how I do it but I just do it.
Was having my lesson today and as he brought me to many of the haunts in the east, I was reminded of the relationship which ended almost a year back. Felt a pang which I did not feel for some time. I did not expect that. I realise that sometimes when something hurts really bad, my survival mechanism comes up and even though I can't remember much anymore, or maybe even how he looks like, I just know that something is bad and as part of the famous adage goes: never again, no matter what. He gave me some interesting advice, like how terrible guys can be, esp once they think they have gotten the girl, etc.. and about fate and destiny. Maybe it's true in the sense that with each relationship, I know what I want and my own limits and boundaries, to stop trying to believe in the best of others and believing that my choice was right, which is something which T felt I should have drawn up, so that I "wun let the scum in". But it's one thing to hear T say it but another thing to him say that.
Was talking to someone recently. We talked for sometime and we talked about some stuff. I just think that after the flops in the past year, I miss singlehood. Relationships in the past year seem to double my problems and adding on unneccessary drama and problems which I should have not deal with if the guy was the right one for me, which was the advice he meted out tonight, which was what my other much more experienced friends said. He understood my stand and did not push me, just hoped that with my planned next career step put on hold for now, which makes sense to try it out, but given my circumstances, I dun wana end up being an emotional burden to him. I wun mind him being with me as a friend, together with my other friends who are trying to help me help myself in that area which I do admit that I seem to flounder so. Their infinite patience is amazing. You know who you are. Thanks. *hugs*
Since we are on the line of circumstances, I read Malcolm Gladwell's Outliers for the past week, which seems a little like Alain de Botton in the sense that it states the obvious; and back them up with stats, like how success is affected not really by tradtional notions of success singularly but a mixture of other factors like family background which are out of our control, etc.. It provided me a reality check about success and how much we are limited. But part of me rebels against some of his postulations as it makes success seem more circumstantial than anything and if we lose that motivation to succeed because of the family we are born in, the month that we are born in, our ancestors' lifestyle, then what else do we have left? Like the book puts forth: hard work. Maybe talent doesn't count as much and there's a limit to how far talent can get you. I read with interest the case of the guy with the highest IQ in the world, who instead of becoming the next Socrates or tv writer (we definitely need more intelligent tv shows!), decided to work on the farm. And this might be the smartest guy around, making the smartest decision ever.
So a round up, had a hectic hols working on my thesis... things are crazy but hopefully everything works out... am grateful for an understanding sup... I ended up bringing down my IRB form to their office on a sweltering afternoon before my lesson. Tutoring my cuz also ended up in tennis lesson two. Coach J seems v optimistic, learnt to hit the ball in the first lesson, backhand the second. Now he is talking abt getting tennis shoes and rackets and all this coming from a guy who asked us to come in our track shoes and lends us rackets, I feel a slight surge of optimism. :)
Another semester begins, am glad to receive students I've taught dropping me a line to tell me that they are taking the modules I'm helping out this sem... yea! Can't wait for next week to come! Had a couple of meetings and I'm looking forward to this sem! :) Also managed to get a copy of the latest book out on the Goh Chok Tong administration, saw a couple of familiar names... and I think it's interesting how this book covers the different aspects of the issues he tackled as PM for 14 years. And the contributors to the book do offer contrary and interesting observations on issues such as the gay community during the administation and how he is portrayed in the media. Such apt timing, just before National Day and the day when it was announced that the government is on the lookout for PM Lee's successor. ;) Thanks to G for dropping me a line this morning about it... it was pure serendipity that I managed to see it in the lib today! :)
Song tonight reminds me of the talk we had. A song that I can relate it to on so many levels but like wat WY will expect, I shall just leave it at this. Poignant lyrics which are raw and lovely, though I dun really get it as well. I like Wang Lee Hom's ballads! :)
Happy National Day and enjoy your long weekend peeps! :)
Meimin @ MnM is currently pursuing her Masters in Communications at the National University of Singapore.
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